Hunter youre like no one I have ever met.

I hadn't realized how long it has been since I last updated on here. I guess I have just been so busy with things. Sometimes i feel like i am the craziest person alive. Okay, well maybe not the craziest. I feel like i have days where i am just so damn confused. Ill have things figured out and then BOOM from no where I am lost again. Sometimes I wonder if that is actually normal. Yet, what is normal? The leaves are started to kind of change here. I love it because i think autumn is such a pretty season. Well, autumn and spring are pretty seasons. It hasn't gotten too cold here yet. The average high during each day is about 65. However, it doesnt get as cold here as it use to before global warming. Jamie has a new girlfriend, ugh. I like her girlfriend it is just annoying because I never see my best friend anymore. Plus Stephanie (my other roomie) has a girlfriend. It gets kind of lonely when they are always on their girls. This weekend is Sparky's birthday. I am kind of debating if I am going to go. I am being a Bitter Betty and I need to stop. She is a nice girl and it's her birthday, so I have to go, lol. Anyways, I am rambling about nothing at all. This was a pointless post. OH, I bought Imogen Heaps new cd.....LOVE. I love everything about her anyways. She just gets better and better. Here are some of my favorite lyrics.

what matters to you doesnt matter, matter to me

what matters to me doesnt matter, matter to you

what matters to you doesnt matter, matter to them

what matters to them doesnt change anything

mood: thirsty

he stormed in my bedroom and told me he had to ask me something. he attacked me asking questions as though i didnt care about him. he said i was deleting guys comments off my facebook that were flirting with me. he demanded i tell him if anything was going on. as always i am faithful, so i responded no. he said he went through my phone and found something. i knew this was untrue yet he only attacked me more and more. i asked him why he would go through my phone? is it that he doesnt trust me? i let him yell at me and accuse me to make himself feel better. i walked out to catch my breath and came back into my bedroom. i grabbed his phone from his hands and i went through his text messages. he got really upset and told me to give itback so he could finish a text. i siply responded with sarcasim, "oh, so you can go through my phone but i can't go through yours???" he always has a lock on his phone so this was my chance. he hoovered over me nervously like he was hiding something. so i knew there was something. he followed me around the apartment as i searched his crackberry for something juicy. he kept saying you won't find anything. i never once thought in my life julio was unfaithful, never. i found a IM from badboy289 with risky69. risky69???? wtf? i read on and found that this guy and julio were pretty much saying shit they wanted to do to eachother. i wouldnt even want to put what was said because i am so sick to my stomach about it. he tried to tell me he never went to his house cause he cared about me. HAHAHA riiiiiiiiiight. he cared? if he cared he wouldnt have even responded to the text IM. i told him to get the fuck out of my house. he called aboutan hour later and i told him i never want to see him again and that he lost everything. i could never trust him again. i lost my voice lastnigth from screaming....i had to text him this morning to give me back my ipod. i told him to bring it asap. i guess asap was within 10 minutes. he walked in my house and hugged me and called me baby. i told himt o get his fucking hands off of me. i dont put up with that shit. you cheat on me, thats it. there is no im sorry. there is not second chance. there is no forgiveness. he blocked me from leaving as he begged. all he got was shot down. im done. i told him in his face i will enevr love you again and i wasted these 10 months to someone who is a piece of shit. once a cheater.....always a cheater.

mood: over it